Moments

I ran into an old friend today. Mcd's once again served a purpose.

It fasinates me the immediate reaction I recieve from people who I haven't seen in a long time. Whether the relationship between myself and them paused on good terms or bad ones, the immediate reaction is always the same. A shocking smile, intense and believable. I find myself immediately drawn to this, I give back and intense reflexive reaction. It doesn't matter what happen in the past, all that matters is that moment. So while I can't claim that moment or moments last as long as I would like, I know I wouldn't trade them for anything.

There have been several points in my life that I wished I could relive moments. I am sure I am no different from others. Like others, I can't. It does weird me out a little how many times since I've been in college I wished to relive moments. Either way, I am left to deal with the consequences, usually the hurt or sadness. Every once in a while, the smile or laughter.

I spent a good part of last night watching "Eternal Sunshine" starring Jim Carrey. As I watch his charater run in an attempt to preserve memories which hours before he wanted washed away, I saw myself in him. There were times my mind couldn't take the lost of a friend or the sadness that comes with severe disappointment. Sometimes, I consider being a realist to ease the blow of life's disappointments like others do. I think stop to think about the sweet moments that were inspired by my optimism and love for life. The run back to utter words I couldn't hold in. The laughter at the brillance of my friendships. It doesn't last long, always fleeting just like every other moment. Out of all the moments, few do something special.

They invade the mind, plant a flag that never seems to lose wind. The collection of moments build up a nation that inspires us to dream and create new moments. I know I will never uproot a single flag that has stake a claim upon my mind. It is my history that will continue 'til I die. That thought is inspiring. It lets me know that no matter what one moment brings, there will be many more to come. Each bringing something new and purposeful.

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