Thoughts in mind

Almost went over again.

Anyway today was inspiring. I had real cool text convo with someone the previous night that got me thinking about several things. It is pretty interesting how small things can have huge impacts. So I spent about an hour looking up quotes then cutting and pasting them around my desk and laptop. My favorites are:

The trouble is, if you don't risk anything, you risk even more.
Hell, there are no rules here -- we're trying to accomplish something
Life is change. Growth is optional. Choose wisely.

Those three really get to me. I deal with some weird things at times. I end up going inside to figure things out. I always thought that if I had a more consisent father figure, life would be so much easier. I don't know if I am right or if 5 years down the road I will think the same. I just know that at times it is generally difficult to handle situations that I've never been in. I sometimes feel I lack any real principles that a father would have given a son. All I have are the ones I acquired myself. So doubt comes in, I am right.

The only principle that has never been put into doubt: nothing worth while comes easy. I probably stuck to that one the most just because it seems I deal with a lot of things that can easily limit me if I let it. I try to choose growth all the time. Face my fears and never back down in the face of a challenge. It's tough. The eerie feeling I get in my stomach. The doubt that knocks on my mind's door. I can't explain any of it. I sometimes attempt to. I have been trying to just go with it. Knowing in the end, I'll be better for it.

I guess in the end, things will resolve themselves somehow. I make mistakes, I will end up making many more. That is the price of constantly pushing ahead and choosing greatness over medicrioty. I am no where near greatness. I see faults in myself everyday. Tough way to live. I feel like something I should strive for is positivity. So I am going to take the positivity challenge. '
Rule
Only positive thoughts for the next ten days
If I entertain any negative thoughts for more than two seconds, I have to start all over completely again.
To make it tougher, no self-defeating thoughts, no bad mouthing anyone.

Well those last two wouldn't be too hard really. So it begins now. It should be fun. It will be fun.

Until tomorrow

Marvel