Desire Back In Full Force

The most interesting thing that happened over the period of not blogging was I lost a huge sense of desire and hunger.

It was essentially a part of losing ego aka being on the path to enlightenment. In reality, it was just another way of building a second ego. Basically, it doesn't matter what I desire. As long as I don't put unnecessary value on them. In truth, I am tired of not wanting anything anymore. It is way too boring.

So I am going for it big time. The funny thing to me is despite trying to not desire things, amazing things still came. Now I wonder what will come my way when I actually put my mind to it. Only time will tell. All I know is I am going for it. The hunger is back. I lost 6 pounds in the last month. Not cool. Scary.

Either way, I am ready and able to go the distance. It is about time. I'm well rested. I see a lot, matured from the experience. See doubt, fear and worry invade my mind. Done amazing things with those there. I am ready to do great things.

I still desire greatness. I still desire to be on top. Who cares if I lose. I rather lose going for it, living life to the max, balls to the wall. Then just chilling. Best thing about the period of no desire, I learned to clear my mind of desire. It has hidden advantages.

No Ego, Just Heart.

Until next time
Marvel