Life Is Change

My willingness to fail has been flucating lately.

It's been bred into me just like everyone else. Failure is a scary thought. Basing self-confidence on accomplishments and if things are being done "right". I have to let go of that ideal. Failure isn't real, it's all psychological. No one on top will ever tell you they got there cause they never failed. They will probably tell you that their failures got them to their position. It's counter-intuitative but I know I personally always learn more from my failures than my successes.

Still it's tough to let go of that ideal of perfection. The image that society puts out is "it just happens." Either you got it or you don't. This foolish ideal has suppressed some many minds.

Simple question: how did those who got it, get it in the first place?
Answer: they worked for it.

They know there is no magic pill. Life isn't linear. It goes in waves. That's why it isn't possible to be happy all the time. I can enjoy my life in sadness and happiness, for sure. I don't think I always feel good. I do know I will always appreciate what I am feeling or where I am. Why?

Energy. Time. These are the most valueable resources. "Life is change. Growth is optional. Choose wisely." I choose to use my time and energy to grow constantly. Growth can be constant. It's all a mindset.

I recall a paper I wrote in 10th grade, it opened "Sadly so, change happens." I remember my really good friend, amazing guy, making fun of it. I now laugh at that thought. Change will always happen, I can accept it and transcend the surface circumstances and grow because of it.

I trust myself enough that no matter what right or wrong, I'll be better for it. My mindset is "I choose growth."

I realize I am reaching a state of self-awareness. It is becoming more constant. I am letting go of a lot of selfish ideals I adopted to get out of my weak mindsets when I was younger. I am growing.

I am letting go of the measuring of failure and accomplishment i.e. always judging if what I am doing at the moment is right or wrong. I can look back not for long. I notice learning from mistakes is a quick process. It doesn't take overthinking like most people think. A lot of the time the overthinking comes from not being able to seperate emotions out of a situation. Emotions are healthy for sure but I find in the learning process and growth process emotions hinder more often than not.

Until tomorrow
Marvel